Wow. Haven is almost two months old. I cannot believe it! The last few months have flown by faster than ever. Yet somehow I don't remember what it was like in many ways to not be a mommy.
It is amazing how much you try to prepare for something: reading endless books and magazines, seeking advice of others, etc. In the end, those things are important, but being a mommy really comes naturally. Obviously, it is challenging and overwhelming at times. However, I think I have learned the most by just making mistakes and learning from them. In so many ways being a mommy does not have many rewards from the outside (as far as from society). Yet, being a mommy has been the most rewarding experience of my life. Haven has turned my world upside down and I love her to death for it. It doesn't matter what she does, I am so happy to just be able to care for her. I don't need recognition from others, I just need to look at Haven's beautiful eyes and I feel more proud and honored to be her mommy than I can even explain. Although getting into the swing of things has had its challenges, and although I dearly miss teaching, I wouldn't trade my "new job" for anything in the world. I am so thankful to be able to stay home with my amazing daughter. I am so thankful to have a supportive husband who works so hard to provide for his family. I am so thankful to have the support of many friends and family.
God has richly blessed my life!!!!